That moment when you have an opportunity to get what you’ve wanted for years and you don’t follow through because of hesitancy and doubt. I hate regret and as I’m going into the new year with some of it, I’m making a decision to do my best to live without regrets. Timing may not always be perfect but opportunity only knocks once. Sometimes my “no” blocks me from really living in the present. I want to say “yes” to more fun things this new year. I need it.
I’ve been feeling some type of way about the holiday season. It’s not that I don’t appreciate the extra love and goodwill, it’s just that I struggle to involve myself in it. I love in a state where it snows during the winter. For some reason the winter is the time of year where you just want to cuddle with someone by a warm fireplace with some hot cocoa or adult drink and read a good book. Now in my defense, I don’t have a fireplace but i have had one at some point and it was super relaxing. The holidays bring up so much emotion and memories for a lot if people but we have to remember they don’t last forever.
I’m so saddened by the events of recent days–especially the most recent one of the 18 year old being gunned down at a gas station for no apparent reason. Why is it that we don’t hear about these types of crimes happening in other countries with those charged with the duty to protect and serve killing those they’ve sworn to protect? I’ll be the first to admit that there needs to be a systemic change. Protests raise awareness but what is the long term solution to change perception and perspectives? What do my future children have to look forward to in the world? I want them to grow up and have a chance at success instead of their lives being cut short by an avoidable situation. Thoughts and prayers for the family and friends of the young man shot tonight in St. Louis. Especially his parents.
At what point does it become counterproductive waiting for something to happen. Most people would agree that patience is a virtue but the virtue has an expiration date. Some things only come in time, but they also sometimes never come despite waiting for them. I think there’s wisdom in identifying the difference between the two. If I’ve spent two years waiting on something that could possibly happen does that mean I’m still wasting my time? I think it’s all about taking the pros and cons into consideration and then making a decision– despite the fact that it’s with limited information.
This song has been on repeat for the past few weeks. I cant exactly say why I like it but I can honestly say that I LOVE the bassline on the vamp. The words of the song tell a story of a woman who is very aware of her actions and how they affect others. Plus, we can’t forget the fact that Ne-Yo is also a pretty talented singer.