There’s something that I have literally been dreading for the past year or so. While it’s a happy event in and of itself, it signifies yet another heart crushing experience. I’ve never been the person who can’t be happy for others because I wish it was me but I must admit that having that perspective is especially hard with that situation. Blood, sweat, tears, hundreds of hours of inconvenience, and everything else has gone into this thing and now it’s been proved that it’s all for nothing. Not the best feeling ever. I’ll need a moment or two–or three.