I don’t usually do these type of posts but a year ago around this time I was traveling. Through a series of events I was presented with an opportunity that I thought I wanted. It was something that I had literally talked my way into. However, I found myself taking the coward’s way out and running away instead of taking advantage. To this day I regret it to some extent because I’m positive the opportunity will never come again. But I know on some level that I made the right decision that my future self will one day thank me for. It’s just hard sometimes wondering how the opportunity would have had an impact on future decisions if I had gone with it. I’ll never know and one year later it still bothers me. This new year I want to say “yes” to more opportunities instead of playing it safe all the time
I have to be honest, I don’t like to take risks. I hate the unknown and I like being prepared. However in a few hours I’ll get the opportunity to go outside of my comfort zone and do something different. While I’m excited, I’m also cautious as well. There’s not a lot of things I can do to prepare except to count down the hours and hope that it goes well. I remember a similar feeling when I went to France this year. Hopefully this will work out the same way–with a good outcome.
I’ve never considered myself to be a morning person. Sure, I can wake up at the crack of dawn to be somewhere but I think it’s too much to ask for me to be happy about it. Since working nights, I think that I have discovered a hidden source of energy between midnight and 3am. While I like getting an early start, the truth is that I’m not really productive in the mornings. It’s just hard to get my head together and think clearly before 10am. Not impossible, but challenging. Needless to say, it will be nice to possibly get on a more regular schedule. One day.
Recently I had an experience where I had to deal with conflict and a big misunderstanding. I was and still am somewhat annoyed at what happened. But at the end of the day I don’t want drama in my life but it finds me more often than I would like. At the end of the day, communication is key. Being an adult is no indication of emotional maturity, and sometimes you have to be willing to admit that you were wrong instead of excusing behavior.