That the last time I saw him was the last time I’ll see him. Yes, it may be irrational in this situation because I’ll see him next week but it’s happened to me before. I’ve had someone make promises about the life we would build together and then take it all back. I’ve had someone tell me they liked me only to call the next day and say that they changed their mind. I hate feeling paranoid but I also hate feeling unprepared for heartbreak.  There’s nothing like that feeling when you’ve genuinely felt tricked and I want to avoid it. It’s like literally waiting for the other shoe to drop. I don’t want it to end but I can’t count on it continuing. It just sucks.