So apparently the Universe wanted me to see the guy again and it happened. But I’m still worried that I’m going to get dropped at a moments notice. It would be cool to have the luxury of belief when I was told that this wasn’t a casual thing but we all know people lie. I hate feeling like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop and for my fears to be realized. While I want to live in the moment I want to be prepared for the screeching halt and subsequent annihilation of my hopes. That’s going to suck and being prepared beforehand would be nice. I don’t want to hear the “we aren’t compatible” speech but by the same token, I just want to get it over with.