crieneThis year, I am forgiving myself. For all my shortcomings, for all my mistakes, for all the things I did and regret doing. I am forgiving myself for all the times I let my guard down and was hurt. I am forgiving myself for all the times I fell for all the wrong people, for…
Grace ChungGrowing up in Small Town, USA, I was accustomed to a town where people often said, “They call this place ‘a retirement town’ because this is where people come to die.” Everyone knows everybody, and everyone knows all about your business. You can’t seem to go to a store without seeing a handful of…
I love this article and it has a lot of truth to it. I moved across the country about a month ago for the second time in my life and it’s been a good experience. I’ve gotten the chance to meet new people and go exploring.
Well, it’s the day after election and I’m getting messages from friends overseas asking if I’m ok. Like a lot of people, I have to admit that I was dumbfounded by the election. I thought that maybe we were better than this. The entire political race was a joke and while I wasn’t a fan of either candidate there was one who particularly stood out in their stupidity. But we can’t have it all can we?
Lack of sleep doesn’t help worrying at all. It would be nice to wish it away but I know why it’s there. The truth of the matter is that there’s a chance that everything is ok but the chance that it’s not is messing with me. No news might be good news but it could also mean that it’s all over. But I can only manage myself and I can’t make anyone do anything. I can only help that they appreciate honesty and being straight forward as much as I do. Just wish it wasn’t so hard at times. I’ll be fine but I definitely need some sleep.
I’ve come to the realization that I’m definitely the pursuer in relational situations. I’m the one who checks to see if a person is ok. I make an effort to talk to them and I make time for people. However, it’s never reciprocated. This year I’ve decided to stop running after people who would never do the same for me. I’m tired of going out on a limb and not getting anything in return. I think that this just means I need to be a bit more selective about my friends and also take the time to do fun things for me–at least once in a while. It would be nice to have a significant relationship that embodied more of a “give and take” type of approach.
I must admit that the past few days have reminded me why I hate being on the bottom rung of a corporate ladder. You are at the beck and call of your superiors and you take shit from everyone because it’s your job and that’s what you’re paid to do. Not my cup of tea but it’s somewhat tolerable because I’ve done it before. It’s interesting how people are the same–even after a change in geographic location. What I mean by that is that there are similar personalities everywhere. There are the forever optimists and then those who are always complaining about something. I can’t wait until this learning curve is over, but to be honest, I really can’t wait until I don’t have a boss. Maybe I’m just too much of a free spirit and I like being in charge instead.
I’m so saddened by the events of recent days–especially the most recent one of the 18 year old being gunned down at a gas station for no apparent reason. Why is it that we don’t hear about these types of crimes happening in other countries with those charged with the duty to protect and serve killing those they’ve sworn to protect? I’ll be the first to admit that there needs to be a systemic change. Protests raise awareness but what is the long term solution to change perception and perspectives? What do my future children have to look forward to in the world? I want them to grow up and have a chance at success instead of their lives being cut short by an avoidable situation. Thoughts and prayers for the family and friends of the young man shot tonight in St. Louis. Especially his parents.