The Un-edited Truth of Di

Cutting it off now

I’m a huge fan of the show Catfish and I’m only writing this on here because I like to process by writing. I met a guy online about 7 months ago. He said he was a doctor who lived in Massachusetts. We’ve texted almost every day since then but there are so many things that are just red flags. He says he’s too busy to call. I’ve talked to him TWICE over the phone in 7 months and both conversations have been under 4 minutes. I’ve asked about FaceTime but he keeps avoiding the question. I’ve asked for his last name and searched the state registry for his medical license. No such name. Every time I confront him all of a sudden I’m the one who’s in the wrong and paranoid because I refuse to fly to Massachusetts to meet him. But I’m not doing that for someone who’s identity I can’t verify. It’s crazy. But everything seems to indicate that he’s lying and that’s just not cool. He obviously doesn’t care at this point and I’m not going to pursue it further. I held on so long because I wanted him to be serious but he’s probably some old wrinkled man in some random place with an iPhone. Ok, decision has been made. He’s done. I just wish people were honest. 


Been a while

Ok y’all. It’s been a while since I’ve written. Not a lot has changed and my love life is still the same. I came across this picture and it sums up everything so perfectly. I don’t even have anything else to say. 

Waiting in vain 

I hate being stood up. It just shows a disregard for my feelings. It happened with a guy recently who said he wanted to meet me but then never spoke to me again. It may happen with another guy this weekend. I just wish people wanted the same thing I do. A commitment. But that’s damn near impossible to find these days. Wish it wasn’t so hard. I just want to wake up next to the person I love who loves me back and isn’t going anywhere. 


Apart from being a great Michael Jackson song, butterflies are something that I want with a significant other. I know to focus on the personality and character but I also want chemistry. Someone I’m actually attracted to. Lately I’ve been on some dates with good guys. They have careers and are stable but the attraction factor just isn’t there. Maybe one day I’ll meet someone with both. 

It’s frustrating 

It’s so frustrating when I meet someone who seems cool and there is absolutely no follow up on their part. I usually like to reach out at least once but I don’t want to feel like I’m chasing someone down and waiting for them to hang out with me. I just wish people were more consistent and straight forward about what they want. Don’t tell me that I seem perfect and then never speak to me again. It’s annoying. 

Pictures worth a thousand words 

I don’t know why but I like going to Vegas. It’s even better to go when you’re not broke. I’ve found that I really like slot machines but I also enjoy the lights and good food. One of my plans is to go back and experience a show that features an artist that I like. Recently I had a 3 hour layover in the airport and decided to play one of the many slot machines. I put a $20 bill in it and started playing. I was on a loosing streak until I went down to about $3 and then.. I hit the jackpot and “won” $52 bucks. It was so exhilarating. I got my money back with some interest and that’s why gambling is so freaking addictive. You have to know when to walk away. And while I immediately cashed out and went to find my gate, I was tempted to play some more. All that being said, I’m going to Vegas again at some point. 

Status right now

For the last few months I’ve been living in a lot of places. I’m in a new part of the country that has one of the most expensive housing rates and it’s been interesting. I recently did the math and calculated that I’m spending about 2 grand a month for housing. And this isn’t for an apartment, it’s for a room and bathroom in someone’s house. It’s been eye opening packing up all my earthly belongings and moving to a new place every two weeks. It’s absolutely exhausting. I’ve stayed at several places I’ve liked and others that I wasn’t crazy about. There have been some without any heat or AC and some that have not had hot water. It’s a new experience every time. I never thought that I’d miss the luxury of having a kitchen or a place where I could have friends over and chill. I kinds miss being settled but I want to be settled with someone. That’s just not a possibility right now. I kinda wish I had a home. Or someone to call home.

Crazy so far 

My life has been so crazy lately. Taking on a second job and completing trainings in addition to my regular job has been exhausting. However this weekend and yesterday I’ve had the chance to confirm that there are some good guys still out there and I happen to know them. It’s refreshing to know that some people have the characteristics that I want in a significant other. Despite all the craziness, it was nice to just “be” for a bit and enjoy good conversations. I’m still figuring out my next steps and what I’m doing next but I’ll be ok. 

The life I live

Lately I’ve been in this weird mode of quiet desperation to get my life together. I don’t know why but there are so many other things that I want to do besides what I’m doing now. Maybe it’s the lack of air conditioning, heat, and hot water in the place that I’m staying right now, but I just know that I need to do better. I’m working on things related to professional development and I’m in training for a new job and I’m trying to survive with these one day off weekends where I am just too tired to get anything done. I’ve always been the person to push through and while I wish I did have a significant other, the likelihood of that seems to be decreasing. But I’m still trying to keep an open mind. Here’s to new directions, decisions, careers, and traveling.

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